Nationals 2012, different league

WOW WOW WOW!!!!! I am simply blown away. I was sitting on my couch browsing through pics of the canadian national bodybuilding competition past weekend and came across the girls I will compete against. I am absolutely speechless and almost feared by looking at them and knowing I will compete next in year in that league....HOLY COW! The extreme and uncontrolled cravings for peanut butter, gummy bears, bread and wine have "all the sudden" totally disappeared. I am thrilled to have the opportunity to compete at National level in 2012 and I am so pumped and motivated (right now, more than ever) that I will give more than 100% of my focus, dedication and discipline towards it!!!!! I gave my 100% best last season BUT there is ALWAYS more within yourself and I will give more than I have to achieve the best results I have within me! I am so determined to get on that stage and rock it!!!! The first thing I am going to do is, work on my holds and def add new once, more gymnastic classes to follow, more chicken without crying and complaining about it, more mass ( def more mass). While I mention putting on muscle mass, I was just talking to one of my friends, who decided to compete for the first time next year in fitness as well and we both are the complete opposite body shape. Mary is totally going to be BUFF and bulky with the perfect delts, back and chest (easy to build). While I am the lean, shredded, more petite kind a girl...so hopefully my coach and friend Jeni Briscoe can turn me into a SUPER WOMAN Machine! (lol)....I have no doubts in my mind that she will!
To build muscle mass, as I had mentioned in my previous blog, I def. have to up do my protein intake as well as putting on weight.....ya...the weight ....hhmmmm.....always a subject which girls "usually" dislike talking about....but I know it is necessary to build enough, so I won't be losing it again (as in my past season) when lean down-carb cycling phase starts! So, here I am .... growing feathers again and loading up on oats, brown rice and sweet potatoes! I also needed a few new supplements which I can't get in Canada and had to order those through bodybuilding.com online. WOW....talking about spending a fortune ....could have made a good downpayment for a BMW when i got to the end of my HUGE order!
I am so in love with what I am doing....almost obsessed, addicted and can't go a single day without thinking or talking "competition" and working out.....to go on that stage and showing off all the hard work and dedication you put into your body and getting the recognition for all of it is PRICELESS!!!!!! NOTHING in the world can give me that kind of sensation and confidence. Someone in the gym asked me the other day, how I do it? DOING WHAT???...-was my responds. And he said, well, you're at the Y pretty much all day and night, have a family and you are still bubbly, always smiling and as soon as you speak about your sport and about competition, your eyes light up ....well, all I could reply was, that I found exactly that part in my life which completes me.....I can't repeat it often enough, I LOVE what I am doing and I love how my body responds to all my hard work....and there's nothing greater than loving the body you live in....the connection between mind and body gives me more happiness and self esteem than I ever thought I could have!!!!!! I always try to motivate people to go ahead and make their dreams come true....if you like fitness or bodybuilding...DO IT!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! There are no excuses like, I don't have enough time to workout ( so? make time), or I don't have the right genetics ( there is no such thing)....go and do it!!!! You have nothing to lose, you will only gain on strength, courage, self discipline, confidence, HEALTH and positive attitude!!!!!!!
Have a great week everybody and stay fit!

What's next?

Since I finished my season with winning the Alberta Provincials in Fitness 2011 and ended my season with a great trip home to Germany, I am back on the training field. I try to eat as clean as possible and train with a complete new workout program. My goal for next season is to finish first 3 at Nationals. At this point I am trying to gain more muscles which unfortunately is involved with gaining weight ( bulking). I was quite excited when my trainer Jeni told me I need to gain about 10-15 lb....gaining by eating bread and gummie bears? NOPE, that was not her idea of gaining to add more muscle....as I expected we go for more chicken, egg whites and more supplements are needed as well. After coming back from Germany, and lets face it, I drank the entire time I was there, ate enough gummy bears and chocolate for my next 20 cheat saturdays and enjoyed fresh bread and cake like I will never eat it again...it was sickening! I am one of these people who can't do moderation with anything. It is either FULL term or NOTHING. So thats what I did.......emptied every bag of gummy's I opened....SICK! I worked and dieted my A** off to look shredded and lean and it took me months, months of pain and mood swings.......and what did I do? Ate like I a 300lb man! WOW....oh well, I am back in the routine of things and looking forward to my next season. The only person who has an issue with my passion for fitness competition is my husband. I don't and can't really blame him. He's supportive in his own way. For this season, besides adding more mass and tightening my butt more, I def need to have a faster routine and need to work on even more flexibility. 

I am motivated as ever if not even more and can't wait to rock the stage at Nationals next year!!!!

My off season diet looks pretty much as last time....7 meals on training days and 6 on cardio days. I weight train 2 days on one day off ( which is my Cardio day), back on monday, legs on tuesday ( gosh...hate tuesdays) wednesday Cardio for  about 30-35min( which I always do longer),  shoulders and tri's on thursday, chest and bi's on friday and saturdays cardio again and this is also my cheat day of eating...sunday's  DAY OFF...HOORAY!